Contemplating...
When I was still a kid, all my folks would treat me like a princess... as if I was the PRETTIEST GURL in the world. They'd make me dance like a duck, pa-cute and all those childish stuff that, whoever would do in my age... will look really rediculous. They think it's cute, really, I mean that. I was like, the center of their attention, haaay.... bkit ngaun... I feel like I'm the ugliest thing in the world?! Now that I'm 21, in college, a lady... hmmmm... I look nasty, vain.. and whatever! I must admit na marami akong insecurities, minsan hndi ko alam kung tama bang isipin na TAO LANG o ano pero I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT! May times din na feeling ko I'm always a loser, that I'm not good at anything... or should we say A FAILURE TO EVERYTHING *sigh*...flunked grades... things like that. Damn.
So u see, it's not that I'm getting depressed about myself or what, actually, posting this one really helps big time. By the way, I've read this nice section in Cosmo mag (Aug 2004) that really moved me, and actually affected me... a lot. Girls wrote about their past insecurities, and their experiences of rising up and changing their lives because of their realization that they are also beautiful, the thought that gave them the confidence to enjoy life and move on. Now I'm beginning to think that I'm also pretty. There are things that I'm good at.... hmmm... I know that! But there were times that I think, I'm no better than those other girls who have the guts and potentialities. To cut his short... I HAVE AN ESTEEM PROBLEM.... I HAVE TO CHANGE THAT! Now I've learned that I can be beautiful in my own unique way! Finding deep inside me... MARAMI! haay... cguro I already did something one time, that made me pretty... but I never had the nerve to give some attention to it! Hmmm... maybe have no choice but to be happy with myself and my life. That to me, IS already being pretty....*sigh*
So u see, it's not that I'm getting depressed about myself or what, actually, posting this one really helps big time. By the way, I've read this nice section in Cosmo mag (Aug 2004) that really moved me, and actually affected me... a lot. Girls wrote about their past insecurities, and their experiences of rising up and changing their lives because of their realization that they are also beautiful, the thought that gave them the confidence to enjoy life and move on. Now I'm beginning to think that I'm also pretty. There are things that I'm good at.... hmmm... I know that! But there were times that I think, I'm no better than those other girls who have the guts and potentialities. To cut his short... I HAVE AN ESTEEM PROBLEM.... I HAVE TO CHANGE THAT! Now I've learned that I can be beautiful in my own unique way! Finding deep inside me... MARAMI! haay... cguro I already did something one time, that made me pretty... but I never had the nerve to give some attention to it! Hmmm... maybe have no choice but to be happy with myself and my life. That to me, IS already being pretty....*sigh*
